I haven't posted in awhile. Mainly because I got busy with work during the summer and also because I am trying to be more positive in an increasingly negative situation. It's just too hard though, and I'm trying to make sense of all that is going on around me and be thankful for what I have. We may not make the money we want or have the best jobs that we think we should, but we have a great family and house and everything else. And we are healthy and happy for the most part.
But things aren't perfect by any means. They obviously could be worse, way worse, but they could also be better. I'm waiting for the time when we get to celebrate something exciting again. I am hopeful to find a shift in my career so that I can have a more sustainable and manageable schedule and spend more time with my family and doing things that I like to do (like dance which started last night without me!). :( I am hoping that the cysts that are randomly now growing in my ovaries go away so I don't have to worry about that on top of everything else.
I feel weird about it but good because last night I applied for another job. A job I probably won't get or even here from, but I would love to. It is for a local school district for the Assistant Director of Marketing & Communications. It would combine my education background, my TV background, and my marketing/recruiting background. It would be a dream job. The pay is not super high, but it is higher than I am making now and it would be normal hours, no travel, no nights and weekends, and best of all summers off! You can't get any better than that. It has been posted for a month though so they may have already found someone or at least be in final rounds or something. But it was worth a try and I hope that I will hear something soon. It would be a nice distraction and the best part is that it is MY choice. It is my choice if asked to interview if I go, it is my choice if offered the position if I take it or not, it's up to me (well not the part of the actual phone call and whether they offer or not but you know what I mean).
Ideally, if not before, I would like to find something great by the new year. Start 2010 off with a new attitude and a new possibility! I am just feeling so unmotivated and unchallenged lately. I feel like I am being suppressed and there is no good reason for that. So I'm looking forward to see what the future brings, and hope I can stay sane and manage through until I am blessed to get to that point.
